I've realized that my most recent posts have been on the negative side or super critical of myself. With this post I would like to show some gratitude towards the people in my life and the amazing things that have been happening behind the scenes of my recent whirlwind of emotions in my posts. Between the amazing individuals I work for and with and my family, I've had some pretty amazing things happening in my life as of late. Both of my oldest boys are excelling playing football this year, I just got a car, and I finally resubmitted my paperwork to get my driver's license back. The last part of that has been 17 years in the making. I've lived an entire 2 decades almost without having the privilege to drive legally. Most of that time I have been able to reapply, but my lifestyle prevented me from being able to pursue getting it back.
This may not sound like the biggest deal in the world, but to me it means more than just having a car and a license. It means that I will have means to be with and transport my children around at will. The biggest barrier in between doing things with my kids and being able to be there no matter what, has been due to my lack of safely and legally being able to transport them and take them to do things. Along with doctor's appointments, sporting events, and other recreational activities, I will know be able to bring my kids to meet other family members during holiday or when they are around. Most of my family lives not too far away from here, but the ability to drive has prevented my children being able to have a good relationship with my side of the family. Most of all this accomplishment means to me that I never gave up. When all signs pointed at me being stuck in the cycle of beating myself up, doubting myself, and wanting to give up, I persevered, I stuck with it, and now finally maybe one of my biggest goals could be a reality.
Although things are looking up, I can't fully count my eggs before they hatch, the last year and half of changing my attitudes, lifestyle, outlooks, and perceptions on things have taught me that nothing is a for sure thing, so I am still being realistic that I may not get my license back, but all arrows are pointing toward the right direction and that is more than I can say for a larger part of my life. Thank you to all my friends, family, and supporters that have never given up on me, even when I gave up on myself. If you are reading this, then you are reading living proof that you can achieve your dreams as well, just never give up! Until next time....
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