Food For the Soul

First, I would like to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving. I hope everyone got their fill of everyone's favorite holiday dishes and sides. This time of year, is about friends and family and getting together to give thanks for all the blessings given to us, big and small. I am so incredibly thankful for so many things this year. My spiritual cup is definitely spilling over and honestly as the days go on things seem to just keep getting better. I have been blessed to have an extremely close group of friends and family that has given me unwavering support and love. They hold me just tight enough to let me know they are there but yet are understanding enough that when I need to be alone and not pushed any further, they allow me the space I need. I would be nothing without this community and my close-knit group of friends and chosen family, but I also am wise enough that I can't simply do it for others or because others are rooting for me, I have to have time and space to grow and heal. For anyone who is or has gone through any kind of substance abuse disorder, the latter can be scary, dangerous, but also can be very powerful as well. It's a very thin line.

I may have not been able to overcome or meet all of my challenges or goals this year, but as the year winds down, I must say that this has been one of the most liberating, challenging, successful and humbling years of my life. In my many moments of self-reflection throughout the year, I've gone through a roller coaster of emotions, but at the end of the I'm left with one simple word to sum up what I'm left feeling at the end of the day and that is PROUD! With just one month left in the year I will have had a bucket list full of things accomplished. I have never been one to talk good about myself or look at the positive things in my life, but I am proud to say that it no longer possible to contain it. I know I've made many mistakes in the past, and I'm sure I will make plenty more, but when you can go to bed at the end of the day reflect, then move on or make a solid plan, I can't really ask for more than that. I think that this has been one of the biggest contributions of my recent success. Taking the good with the bad, the highs and lows, and recognizing that they are just that moments, minutes, sometimes days, but things pass they always do, some get better, some seem impossible to deal with, but as long as you remember that you can go to sleep, wake up and get another shot for things to go your way then you are right where you need to be. Another lesson to learn another obstacle to overcome and another day to feed your soul. Until next time.....