Easy does it, but do it."

I am quite a procrastinator at some things I don't really wanna do or that changeling. I have had a lot of good ideas, but I didn't want to act on them till I have thought things through and the time was right. For example, I dropped out of High School my senior year in 2006. I thought adulting and partying was a better option for me because I never had a plan to go to collage anyways. I thought working serving table's, becoming a Mom at 19, and renting would just be enough for me. Regarding my drinking, I thought I would be able to stop once I had got my first DUI. That was not true at all for me. It slowly started to pick back up right where I left off, blacked out wasted driving home from the bar to be able to go to work in the morning.

In sobriety, there seemed like there was a a lot of things I could do and just few things I couldn't do. I could stay sober, be a better mom, go to meetings, work the steps, go back and finish High School to get my diploma. Be impeccable to my word. Be a better employee. In the meeting rooms when I saw little saying on the wall like "Easy does it" I took a deep breath thinking it all cant happen over night. I started with little things like just going to a meeting every. I started staying outside after the meeting to socialize. I then started to go to different meetings with fellow people in the program.

As time went on in my sobriety, I was given the chance to have an ankle surgery I needed and took that opportunity while laid up to finish something I started, my high school diploma. I went to MI WORKS and went through their Adult ED program. I got to be laid up at home and work on my classes online. In June of 2018 I graduated top of my class, and made the front page on the record eagle news paper.

I have learned that "Easy does it" refers to my tendency to obsess and overdo things, and the "But do it" part refers to overcoming my resistance to change. I learned that I cant think myself sober or into to any of the things I want in life, but if I take action, I can live the life of my dreams.