I awoke this morning like any other day, my wife kissed me goodbye as she was getting ready to leave. No headache, check. No dry dumpster breath, check, and no hellacious body aches and heartbeats in every muscle group paired with random cramping, double check! These are all the feelings I woke up with every single day of my life in active addiction; I got to a point then where a hair of the dog was a thing of the past. It never quit, I never quit, not until the bottles ran dry or some serious consequences occurred that momentarily put my drinking on a hiatus. And then back at it, go big or go homeless right? Wrong, not today, not any day in my life do I ever intend to live my life in such an insidious fashion. Back to this morning, I had a bowl of cereal, got dressed, didn’t feel like doing my hair and make up because my appointment was just going to be in and out and back home to work. Wrong again, picture time. So I take my hat off and try to salvage the ridiculousness that is my hair when not styled, (and yes some spit was involved) and smiled like I was camera ready. I don’t even care how unkempt I may have appeared, I got my driver‘s license back today. One more big checked box of rectifying my remains of Anna the adult I had whittled down to nearly nada. 1.) Patience
4.) Desire to change
7.) Unconditional love
8.) Elise Corinne, mommy cannot wait to see you this weekend and kiss your face off!!!!!
9.) My dedicated, hardworking, and devoted wife
Doing the same thing over again and expecting a different outcome, that’s the definition of insanity. Doing something new, working hard and being ok with the results as long as you know you did your best; that’s growth. And if no one has told you they love you today, I love you. Yours truly,