• Anna

Stop the Insanity

Doing the same thing and expecting a different outcome is the definition of insanity. And insane I was without a shadow of a doubt every time I made the decision to pick that prisoning punch back up and pour it down my throat. Thinking, “this time will be different”, or “I’m just going to stick to beer”, how about, I’ll draw lines on my bottles or buy smaller bottles to limit myself”, (just to make mire frequent and daring intoxicated trips to the store endangering myself and all in my path), “maybe wine will work!” I could seriously continue these idiotic statements I used to tell myself (all lies), however I’ll save you the time because I’m sure you are picking up what I am putting down. Once I decided to stop hiding behind a bottle, did life instantaneously get easier? Hell no, however remembering everything sure did! No, however healthy routines, processing in a safe environment, and actually talking about my feelings have sure changed my thinking. And yeah, some days I get caught up in my negative thoughts (more than I like to admit, but that’s the difference, today I’ll admit it). 1.) Honesty

2.) Hard work

3.) Changed behavior

4.) Healthy fears

5.) Authenticity

6.) God‘s grace

7.) Unconditional love

8.) Elise Corinne

9.) My patient and fiercely dedicated wife, Jamie

10.) Family

Changing your thinking and behavior, positive or negative is not easy in the least bit. Drinking yourself into an early grave, alone, self loathing, and miserable isn’t either. You decide. And if no one has told you they love you today, I love you!

Yours truly,


Anna




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