Updated: Apr 28, 2020
Some days I sit in awe and wonder, if I pinch myself, will I awake from this daily living I’ve grown so accustomed to, feeling more and more familiar every day. I almost am in disbelief, this is my life today. Married to this magnificent specimen of a human being, whom I view as a beautiful, respected, and educated woman of grace and integrity, a job with continuous growth, and I now, a healthy and happy woman who is finally whole, no longer searching for her “better half. With a heart holding more to give than I thought I could and have ever received. (Which has been bountiful to say the least). There was a time I begged for this to be the pinch that awoken me; my life had diminished to that of a lonely soul barely existing the treacherous life of a shattered alcoholic. Countless nights I spent sweating with the shakes, only to spill the bottle down my throat in tears and accept my fate of death and despair. Losing everything but my life, my desire to continue was merely a squeak of shadows, and my dreams vanishing with every gulp as I ached for my child. Blaming everyone and hanging onto every hurt, my life was completely unmanageable. Until I realized the key was in my back pocket to relinquish the chains of my personal prison.
1.) Saying no, and being content knowing it is a full sentence.
2.) The aha moments
3.) Blind faith
4.) Sharing these times of despair, in hopes to foster change.
6.) Nuggles and Tisses
7.) Unconditional love
8.) Elise Corinne 💗💗
9.) My wife ❤️
10.) My family
Through my painful struggles I had countless people tell me one day I would have a testimony and help so many like myself. Find my way to the liquor store, mocking those who believed in me to drown my sorrows yet again. Not today, never tomorrow.