• Anna

Painstakingly Restored

I’ve learned far more from pain than I could ever learn from pleasure. The old saying, “walk a mile in my shoes”, to me, seems like a jaded and somewhat sarcastic phrase. Then with perception, do you hear, “make better choices because this is a tough life you do not ever want”, or do you hear, “you couldn’t and wouldn’t handle this life”? Does it get disregarded? Or does it truly allow that individual to open their eyes and heart; to see and truly feel what it is like to live with those exact struggles and strengths. I for one had to tread the deepest of waters without a boat or paddle. Damn near drowning on several occasions, and only by the grace of God and his angels, who gently laid me on dry shores. Only to bury myself deeper and deeper in the pits of the devil’s layer. Desperately clawing at the hottest of his coals in my own personal hell, with every guzzle of his tainted elixir I downed. Self inflicted misery and pain, punishing all who loved and cared for me with the sickest of thinking, “I’ll show you, I’ll hurt me.” Every time things didn’t go my way, as if a giant toddler throwing fits to levels of gargantuan sizes.

1.) Freedom from the obsession

2.) Smiles and sunshine

3.) Helping others

4.) Patience

5.) A purpose driven life

6.) Reconciliation

7.) Unconditional love

8.) Elise Corinne, my greatest accomplishment ♥️

9.) Jamie, God bless you for loving a wretch like me

10.) My mother, she is all that is good in me

Changing that thinking and breaking those self sabotaging habits are definitely not easy, but they are so worth it. I am worth it, you are worth it, and we all deserve to be happy, joyous, and free. When I say free, I mean freedom from self and the obsession of alcohol or anything else that keeps you shackled and stunted from being the best version of YOU!! And, if no one has told you that they love you today. I love you! Yours truly,


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