• Anna

Life On Life’s Terms

Depending on who you ask, there are 2, 3, to a dozen inevitables in every person’s life that at one point or another will occur. To me, these are the hardest to swallow. Conflict: you’ll meet people throughout your journey that no matter what, like oil and water simply do not mix.

Having weaknesses: we all have our very own kryptonite, some have several. Knowing they are no good for us and indulging anyways; toxic relationships, drugs and alcohol, gambling, you name it. Making that decision to face it head on is not an easy task and the fears and anguish, pain and suffering, destruction of self and all that is good can result from “just one more”.

Growing old: so many of our loved ones don’t even get this opportunity and what you and I take for granted. Each and every year, month, week, day, and hour are blessings and moments to make memories, impacts, and be present with the ones that love you and are deserving of you; presently present. Please, if you get anything out of this blog today, it’s slow down and absorb every laugh, every kiss, and every moment that you will never have again.

Seeing yourself fail: “failure is not an option” was beat into my brain to the point where I’d get sick before tests and games and throughout my life chase the validation that will never be granted. That’s another one of the inevitable things that will happen at some point in your life. Probably more often than you’d like.

But failure is the biggest teacher in life. If you learn to love it, to take its lessons and then benefit from it, you’ll have mastered an important aspect of life.

After doing something wrong, you can move on stronger and know exactly what not to do next time. Isn’t that great?!

Taking something (or someone) important for granted: as if it, they, them, will be patiently waiting for you to finally love, respect, cherish, and align words and actions into unquestionable devotion.

And finally, mine and I’m sure everyone else’s least favorite.

Death: they say that our time here on earth is comparable to a droplet of water, as eternity is to the sea. And untimely death is to serve a purpose for a greater cause; I struggle with that, a lot. I struggle for my own personal and selfish reasons about my daughter and I struggle watching people I care for and love, reopen Pandora’s box and resign that death sentence to satan his self written in their own blood. And I get it, I struggled with my wreck less poisoning, drink by drink, not ready to face my biggest obstacle; myself.

I still get in my own way and do a damn good job of it, however I have been relinquished of that obsession; that obsession that quickens your heart rate, and irritates you to the brink of insanity, driven by the fiery forces of hell to get that fix. And allow nothing and no one to get in your way.

1.) Freedom, from my own personal bondage

2.) Equip for Freedom, my place of employment where it is my job to help others and to combat the insatiable and insidious evil known as addiction

3.) Watching the transformation

4.) Being the transformation

5.) REAL friendships

6.) Chasing your dreams and conquering each and every one. One at a time, one day at a time

7.) Unconditional love

8.) Elise Corinne, you are everything I thought I wasn’t and so much more my love

9.) My wife Jamie, who rises to the occasion no what that may be and no matter how far she has to go to see her kids and I smile and feel safe

10.) My mother who never gave up on me, always told me to I’m loved, worthy, and she believed in me

Last week was not my favorite to say the least, we had to say goodbye to a beautiful spirit and vibrant soul. I’d like to dedicate this blog to her. Michelle, you touched the lives of so many, and left an impact on me personally, one I’ll never forget. I don’t know why your presence was so short lived, but I do know I was blessed to watch you grow more alive each and every day and it was absolutely mesmerizing. May the volleyball games in heaven exceed the imaginable, where nothing can be broken, except the break of laughter; may your mail always arrive at tree 33, and may the purpose be recognized and serve exactly as it was intended. And if no one has told you they love you today, I have, I do, and I will always love you.

Yours truly,


Anna




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