So today I did mess up at work. I forgot to call a treatment center as I was leaving the office. About an hour later I realized it. I looked for the information on my phone and realized I didn't have the client's name. So I called the office and got the information. I then called the treatment center only to find out the client had already left.
It’s like a mother: When the baby is crying, she picks up the baby and she holds the baby tenderly in her arms. Your pain, your anxiety is your baby. You have to take care of it. You have to go back to yourself, recognize the suffering in you, embrace the suffering, and you get relief. -ThÃch Nhat Hanh
Instantly I got a sick feeling in my stomach. I know I'm supposed to call when leaving to give them the time of my arrival. So I have been beating myself up all day over this. I feel like a complete failure in this matter. I also feel like I'm incapable of doing my job. I could go on and on about this but it won't fix a single thing.
Don’t sabotage yourself. There are enough people out there who’ll do it for you. -Adam Gnade
We as addicts do this all the time to ourselves. That is being too hard on ourselves. One thing I have learned about being in recovery is owning our mistakes. So when I got back to the office the first thing I had said was I messed up. So that is a great deal all in itself. I can learn from my mistakes. But this also showed how far I have come as a person in life.
Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world. -Lucille Ball
Before I would have thought up a lie to tell. Face it we as people never want to admit our failures. But here I am admitting my failures to the whole world. To show people how to own your mistakes. This is hard for me to do this but it is part of the process.
Later,
