Comfort in the Chaos

A lot of you may be familiar with the term, “comfort in the chaos”. Perhaps not, I use it often when trying to explain or help others understand the depths and psychological hold addiction is capable of in-prisoning one in. I’m a firm believer that the gateway drug, is not marijuana or even alcohol. (In no way, shape, or form am I condoning either); it is hands down, unresolved trauma. “I didn’t experience trauma, no one hit me, I wasn’t ever sexually assaulted, my childhood was alright.” I’m sure many have heard or even said these exact same words, then you start to dig. Neglect is abuse, absence of either parent, possibly both can be devastating, and honestly. Who am I or anyone else to validate or justify what an individual experiences and how it affects them either way?? We all have different capacities, for love, tolerance for pain, understanding, scholastic abilities; the list goes on. My point, we are all very different individuals, with unique moments that compile our lives. Molding us into what you see before you and who you are today. Skewed vision and perception by life experiences and positive and negative influences in our lives. We each have a slightly, sometimes drastically different “lens“ we view life in today.

  1. Change for the better

  2. Patience

  3. Listening to hear

  4. Strength

  5. Support

  6. Humility

  7. Unconditional love

  8. Elise Corinne ❤️

  9. Jamie, my badass and beautiful wife, who just so happens to have 18 months sober today!!

  10. Family

The hustle and bustle of “copping” or buying your booze, withdrawals, and jeopardizing your life and those around you. It, in some sick form, has become “the norm” and comfortable. Quitting the substance once the physical detox completes is the easy part; changing all the unhealthy behaviors and replacing them with healthy ones. That takes some serious and devoted work! I’m not saying it’s going to be easy, but it is so very worth it! And if no one has told you they love you today, I most definitely love you. Yours truly,


Anna




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